Friday, April 29, 2011

Every Time, With Bruises

I dream you in, I drain you out
You return, confusing
Grow on me, I cut you off
Always above me
One swift blow and a twelve step programme
Find the cure, blame the weak
Your thighs, open to interpretation
With instructions inscribed at the back

Oh my God, Oh my God
Write me a note, write me off
Oh my God, Oh my God
These leaves will all be blown away

I fuck you hard, you fuck me up
Every time, with bruises
You trip on me, I rip you out
Your roots will tie me down again
Ten swift blows, no twelve step programme
Will find the cure, steer the weak
Your thighs and rubber ducks belong
To someone less deserving

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Comfort in disobedience

What surges out of me is nothing but indecency
What I long to give to you, but that's what I won't do
Anymore, any time, these butter soaked fingers 
Will get their grip and gouge out your truth

This time it's not me
It's just who you think I am
This time it's not me
I know that you're not real

Trying to be a billion things that comfort me
Comfort you, but that won't happen because it's you
These fallen filings, dropped down to the ceiling
Expect it not to go away, expect it to disobey

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Classroom Confusion

Conclusions will be drawn with the sound of nails on a blackboard
Even though I can see, still need someone to lead me
Always felt the need to be a little more, a little lost
And when you found me you were confused

What's hitting you this time?
Is it helping like you thought it would?
What's hitting you this time?
I hope you'll say it's me again

I took the high road, let you slip away
But you returned, only to push my buttons again
I know and you know where this will go
This time I won't watch, I'll be a part of this show

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Clay and Bones and Us

I saw the stream and crossed it
Even though my feet were dry
I set forth with determination
And a sack of numbers on my back
The further I got, the lighter I felt
The closer I got, the farther you strayed
I thought this was better, bolder, bigger
But you continued following

It's all just hopes and dreams
Made of clay and bones and us
It's all just hopes and dreams
Your lovelessness and your mistrust

Like all misguided stars, when you start to crash
The dust that you inhale won't save you
This developing distance is just a dance away
But it's one you won't entertain
These messages are clear and fluid
Draining all the evidence of wasted trials
It hurts, but you won't want to admit
You might feel something, anything

Saturday, April 9, 2011


I took a step back, I couldn't breathe
It made me see exactly what I wanted
Getting back to basics making me sick
Making me bleed with confusion, turning you on
This incessant breathing must be stopped
It's the only cure I can find that cuts
This silence thick as the walls you've built
Chain me down, I won't try to escape.

Who said you could stay?
Watch me play and weigh me down

If breathing was an option, would you take it away?
Would you set fire instead to my legs
My eyes ache for they can still see
You in your multiple masks of madness
This track that plays on loop in my head
Creates an unkind echo, simulates
Stimulates your bad behavior, adds layers
It will not go unnoticed, you will be redeemed.

Monday, April 4, 2011

One Trip Love

When I first tasted you, I thought you were a dream
Felt as though nothing could ever make me feel so real
Beyond my wildest imagination, you filled that bitter void
I could never get enough of you, you made me feel so high

You are so strong, I am so weak
In front of you I drop and kneel
Now after so long, I surrender to you
It's not easy, but this time I'll come through

An emptiness I felt when you were not around
I let you rule supreme when I was content to be the clown
I let you into my life over and over again
But now I realise that things will never be the same

You are so strong, I am so weak
In front of you I drop and kneel
Now after so long, I surrender to you
It's not easy, but this time I'll come through

(Alternate Second Chorus)

Now I've never felt so strong
Strong enough to know that I was weak and you were wrong
I thought I'd win, I tried to conquer you
The war was in vain because deep down I never wanted too